My little boy started Prep this year. His backpack was almost bigger than him. His shoes looked heavy on his feet. He had his books, all covered with Marvel print, and his name tags were on just about everything. He had his new drink bottle and his new lunchbox, filled with fruit and Vegemite and a frozen block.
My little boy started Prep today – and I didn’t cry. I felt heartless as I left, no tissues, no sobbing, no dark sunglasses. I walked away. I was excited for him. I pushed his brother in his pram, and thought “What do we do now?”. And I could see the same thought in the eyes of other mums, as they walked the slow lonely walk to their cars, without their little ones hanging off them. They didn’t have to slow down for little legs, or stop to stare at a ladybug. There was a sense of freedom.
Their little bubs were safe and happy, almost overshadowed by their new uniforms and their brand new hats. Their little ones were busy, learning where to put their water bottle and their fruit, their new school books and their glue sticks. Was I horrible for not tearing up and sobbing as he left to go into his big classroom?
There was simply too much to think about. What’s his teacher’s name again? Gee, that kid looks naughty! Where does his backpack go? Do they have air conditioning? Will he know who to ask to go for a wee? Where is his brother? Should I be taking more photos?
I spoke to him that afternoon, after the dust settled and I was at work. I called him and he told me he had the best day ever. They made a bee and a caterpillar. There was a naughty boy in his class who yelled over the top of everyone and the teacher had to speak to him. He said his teacher was lovely, really nice, but the kid wasn’t. He liked his sandwich but thought his drink bottle was too big. He said he wanted to go back again tomorrow – he’d made me a “Love Handprint” and wanted me to see it. But he wanted a banana instead of an apple tomorrow.
And I smiled. We’d done it. We’d gotten through the first day without tears or a breakdown, from either one of us. He’d had a fantastic time and I was happy for him. The new chapter has begun. Well done, Jaxon Major. You made us so proud…
THE BIG Q… We ask The Hub experts what their 2017 New Year’s resolution is…
This year I want to be more present. I want to enjoy more moments and be in that moment without my brain drifting to “what’s next?”. Oh, and I want to lose 30 kilos, save more money and learn French 🙂