Dear Mum – Happy Mother’s Day!
I hope you are having a great day, whichever cloud you are riding on right now. I miss you so very much, and I hope you know that. You are with me everyday, and sometimes I notice the things you do to get my attention – like turning the lights on and off, moving things around, talking to the boys in the middle of the night and turning the radio up really loud. Not freaky at all Mum! Truthfully it’s not – cause I know it’s you.
I have so many unanswered questions for you – I hope one day to get an answer… Was I a good baby? Did I cry heaps or did I let you sleep through the night? What was my favourite food? How did you cope with my two older (annoying) brothers and me as a bub?
Your grand boys are amazing, although I’m sure you know that. I sometimes notice them talking to someone down the hallway, or behind me, and I’m sure that’s you. They have heard stories about yo, and Jaxon knows that you aren’t with us any more. He thinks you now live on a plane that flies around England – not sure where he got that from, but I kind of love it. Jaxon said to me that other night, he wishes he’d met you. After I stopped crying, I said to him, ‘She would have loved you. You would have made her laugh everyday’.
Did I make you laugh? Is there any truth in my memory that I went to a function at Dad’s work dressed in your clothes, high heels and a hat? I think I was 4? Did I make that up? I can still see the dress I wore though.
I hope I was a good kid for you, I hope I made you proud and you didn’t struggle too much working full time with three kids. I know it would have been tough for you. I forgive you for forgetting me at school and at band practice those times. I really didn’t mind, but I was really worried I wouldn’t have seen you again. But, I do have to tell you something, and I’m sorry I lied. Yes, it was me who ate all the fun-sized Snickers back in 1989. I’m sorry I lied to you, and I’m sure you knew the truth anyway. They just tasted so damn good!
Mother’s Day sucks without you. Everyday sucks without you. You gave awesome hugs. Thank you for every single one.
THE BIG Q… This month, we ask the hub experts to tell us about their mums. What made her special and what lesson/s did you learn from her?
My mum was a ray of sunshine. She was so strong and was filled with kindness. Even when she knew she was close to leaving us, she made sure we were OK. An amazing woman.